“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, & in His word I put my hope.” (Psalm 130:5)
I am impatient. It takes everything in me to wait on the Lord. I started off the new year eager to get back to the basics in life: time with God, time with my family, time to write. I overhauled my home office, I painted it, & purchased a cute used chair. I created a place where I could have a relaxed & inviting quiet time with the Lord. . . & then I expected a new level of instant intimacy.
This weekend I became frustrated with my “new h&.” I had my four finger joints replaced November 4 with fancy new silicone joints, & have been out of my splint for only two weeks. But I could not assemble anything . I couldn’t put a picture in a frame or use a screwdriver.
My husb& said “Don’t worry about it. I will do it.” But I tossed the object aside in exasperation & whined “But I want to do it!”
Perhaps someday I will be able to do the things I desire. Perhaps not. I have yet to see what my new fingers will be able to do in the long term. The fact is, although I gained straight fingers & a grasp again, I’ve lost a lot of function in how they bend from the h&s. I have a new splint to hold down one of the fingers where the joint is permanently crooked. The therapist says this splint is a “lifer.” I have enough “lifers” & don’t want this one.
Times like this we must surrender over our plans to God & allow Him to take over things. It is easy to believe that if God would just cooperate with our prearranged schedule of events & circumstances, life would be simple. Our motives are good, right?
In Exodus 32, Aaron gets caught up in the rationale of the Israelites who have escaped enslavement & now believe Moses is taking too long on the mountain talking to God. They want an idol to worship & they want it now! God is not sympathetic with their lack of patience.
Proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.”
Many plans are in our hearts. We may have great motives, faithful hearts, & enduring ministries, but despite our plans, the Lord’s purpose always prevails. The sooner we can turn over our heart’s plans & ask God to mold them & development into His purpose, the easier our days will become. Thank goodness the Lord can still use us as we are a work in progress.
About the Author:
Lisa Copen & is the founder of Rest Ministries & has lived with rheumatoid arthritis & fibromyalgia since 1993. She resides in San Diego with her husb& & seven-year-old son.