When you are exhausted of the battle of illness, how do you find the faithfulness of God? Karlton shares his experience.
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” (Isaiah 40:29)
By the winter of 2010-2011 I was circling the drain. My strength was gone, I could see the fear of my approaching death in the eyes of my loved ones. Two choices were laid before me, continue on down the drain and surrender to the inevitable, or take a chance on an operation that I might be too weak to survive or recover from.
What was worse, the heavens were silent. Despite the faithfulness of God and my years of pleading with God for an answer to my situation, it did not come.
After a lifetime of sensing God’s guidance and direction, by that winter I had no clue as to what to do. Yet I had the operation, and as I feared, I had little strength for the recovery. Twice I ended up in the emergency room just days after being released from the hospital.
On my second emergency room visit the doctor looked at me and asked if I wanted orange juice or something. I told him that would be fine. The nurse brought me the juice and asked: “Did you ask him if you could have some orange juice?” I told her “no,” that he had asked me. With a stupefied look on her face she said: “He has has never done that before.”
Yes, I was in such bad shape that even an emergency room doctor who sees death and dying people every day saw how pathetic I was and in what terrible shape I was in and felt pity for me.
I have said that to say this: I survived. I w on that battle. And long after my ordeal I realized that God would not tell me to have the surgery because He would ask no more of me. If I finished my race and went on to be with Him, that was fine. But the choice was up to me. I’m glad I continued the fight even though I had no strength left.
I continue to struggle with my health, and I think God would remind you and me that we have won some battles, and in many cases, the small battles we fight now are nothing compared to what we have already survived. If you are living with a chronic illness you have likely won some battles and have seen the faithfulness of God.
And while it does no good to mourn and relive things we have already endured, it is a good thing to remember that we have some wins under our belt.
Perhaps, like me, you bear some internal and external battle scars. Maybe right now you are fighting a terrible battle. If you are tempted to lose heart, and we all are at times, I encourage you to remember how far you have come, the terrible battles you have already survived, and that with the Lord’s help you will win the war of affliction.
Prayer: Dear Lord, we soon forget what You have already brought us through, help us to remember the victories we have already gained through Your grace and mercy. Amen.
About the Author:
Karlton Douglas lives in Ohio with his lovely wife. The Lord has graciously allowed him to survive some battles, to remain and continue to praise the name of the Lord.
Have your battles gotten you down lately? Have you considered the battles you have already won? When you hear “the faithfulness of God” do you recall just the happy moments, or His presence through the trials too?
If you need a couple minutes to remind you of God’s faithfulness, this is a beautiful video below of 25 scriptures about God’s faithfulness with images of the Oregon coast in the background.