Have you ever hurt people around you because of your pain? We are all guilty of it. Fiona explains how she was reminded of God’s grace during one of these moments. . .
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” (2 Corinthians 4:16-17)
Things hadn’t been going very well. I had to go to the dentist unexpectedly and was in the dentist chair for over an hour. The whole time I was reclined in the chair, my back was hurting more and more. But, as the dentist reminded me, he had no choice, as he needed to work on my tooth.
As I sat there and my back continued to hurt more, I felt frustration which slowly began to turn into anger. Anger at having to be there, anger at not being able to sit in a dentist chair like a “normal” person, anger at having so many medical problems that this was another issue I was having to deal with. I sat there and simmered in my anger, allowing it to get the better of me.
My husband, who has always been so supportive and caring, came home from work later on that day. Little did he know what he was going to find when he walked into the house. Rather than the usual greeting of “Welcome home, how was your day”, he came home to a grouchy, irritable, and angry wife.
He made the mistake of asking how my day had gone and I told him–no detail was left out. I told him how sick and tired I was of all my health issues, how unfair I felt life was, and how I didn’t think anyone understood what it felt like to live with poor health. By the end of my rant, he probably wished he’d just stayed at the office!
As he tried to console me, I found myself not wanting to hear it. I wanted to sit and feel sorry for myself. I could see by his face that I had really hurt his feelings by rejecting his attempt to console me and I felt horrible. I suddenly realized how preoccupied I had been with myself and being in that mindset had closed off any possibility of receiving consolation and comfort from him or God. I quickly apologized to my husband and asked the Lord to forgive me for being so caught up in myself as I had not stopped to think about how my attitude was affecting others.
As my husband sat there and hugged me, the warmth I felt from his embrace consoled me and it reminded me of how God still loves us even when we are not acting very loveable. I was struck by how God’s grace reaches out to us even when we are being grouchy and irritable. God’s grace has no bounds, regardless of how we’re feeling or acting. His love is never ending!
Prayer: Heavenly Father, I pray that remind me that I need to allow you to operate through me when I’m having a bad day so that I don’t hurt people I love. Father, shine through me when I don’t feel good and show me when I need to have an attitude adjustment. Amen.
About the author:
Fiona Burky is a retired Licensed Clinical Counselor who lives in Ohio. It is only by God’s grace and strength that she has been able to endure her multiple health issues. You may view her blog at: http://fionab-growingbeyondyourpainfulpast.blogspot.com
We are all tempted to let our emotions loose and inadvertently hurt the people we care about. At these times, we need to pray (even when we don’t feel like it!), crying out to God for patience, endurance, and to love those we love. This song, “From the Inside Out” by Hillsong is a beautiful reminder that He will always be there when we call for Him.