…yet having a chronic illness is crushing me. I was once a very active individual, loved exercising & hanging out with my friends & I was planning on a lot at this time in my life. I finally found a job opening & I can’t take it because I know that I’m too sick to h&le it.
I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis at the age of 24 so I can’t fully comprehend even how blessed I was to have those five extra years of being illness free. But I do know what it is like to feel like all of your plans are passing you by. I can assure you that God is still at work in your life, He’s just sort of “under-cover” right now. I was working at a very large nonprofit organization when I was diagnosed & had hoped to move up from secretary to program manager or fund development manager.
Ironically, I quit working to finish up my degree (while I still physically could!) & then got much worse. I had job interviews that went great & then I couldn’t st& up from the chair or open the door! It took a couple of years for God’s plan to start to fall into place & He waited until the last moment to always provide financially, but in the end I began Rest Ministries, & have been able to use all the training I received from where I worked for my own nonprofit organization. It was a full-circle moment.
I know it’s hard to just “hang in there” when friends are getting on with their lives & have the physical endurance to do whatever they wish. My advice would be to do your best to still keep your friends, even if you just invite them over for take out at your house. And also find a friend who is your age that has an illness that can be an emotional support for you. One friend who speaks your language can make all the difference. Pray that the Lord will bring this person into your life.
And in the meantime, think outside of what your original plans were for your career. What are your passions? What are your other options to use them? Chronic illness ministry would have been the last thing I would have chosen to do, but God formed that passion & desire in my heart where it wasn’t before.