I am down to 10 mgs of prednisone.
It’s taken 4 months.
I was at 20 mgs for nearly 3 years.
“Prednisone is not good for you!” people told me.
If only you knew, I wanted to say. See this fat? See my eyes with huge cataracts? My swollen feet? . . . I know. But I don’t know what to do.
I flared out of control at 19 mg.
After a decade with the same rheumatologist, I found a new doctor in April.
Please, Lord, let him be able to help me.
He is helping me. I like him. I believe he knows what he is doing.
He treats chronic symptoms with long-term help, acute symptoms with temporary relief so my life can continue.
I am now down to 10 mg from 20. A miracle. My goal is 5. I will likely be at 5 the rest of my life.
That is okay. Don’t listen to the criticism.
It has not been easy.
Exhaustion like I’ve never known.
Shakes. Spasms. Sores. Restlessness.
Did I mention exhaustion?
I can do this. Lord, help me do this.
Withdraws from any medication is never easy.
“Just stop taking it. Just wean yourself off. Just go cold turkey” people say.
If I went cold turkey my body would stop functioning. It’s not a mind over matter kind of thing.
I smile and say, “Yes, well, I’m doing fine, thanks.”
Now I start another medication so that I can continue to decrease the inflammation so I can go to 9 mg.
One day at a time. . .
Lisa Copen is the founder of Rest Ministries and she lives in San Diego with her husband and son. She is gradually learning how to balance motherhood, family, illness, and ministry, but she still knows it will be a lifetime lesson. You can see the books she has written, including, Why Can’t I Make People Understand? at the Rest Ministries shop.