“How long, Lord? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart?” (Psalm 13:1-2)
How long, Lord? Have you asked this question recently? A couple of months ago a man behind me in line at the dollar store started rubbing his temples and moaning. I asked him if he was okay and he said, “Yes, just tired. Someone young like yourself wouldn’t really understand that.” I told him that yes, I did understand; I hadn’t slept in three days due to an RA flare, but I had to pick up some milk and bread.
He responded with sympathy and said, “This is just hell, isn’t it? We are living in hell, aren’t we?” I smiled and said, “Oh, no, we are just living on earth. I believe in hell and it is much worse than this!”
This opened up a conversation that went for over five minutes as he asked me questions about who Jesus was (loudly enough that people 2 check stands over could hear!) As I left, I encouraged him to go to any church on Easter Sunday to hear the gospel message. My son looked at me and asked, “What was that all about?” (Then I had him pray with me in the car for the man.)
There are times when this life feels like we are living in hell. It feels like God has hidden His face from us, withdrawn, grown quiet. We may feel forgotten and we begin to wonder if we are going through hell. I like the country song that says, “If you’re going through hell, keep on going. . . Before the devil even knows your name.”
We are not living in hell. Even though the pain is extreme, as I once heard Joni Eareckson Tada describe it, these are just “splashes of hell.” Every now and then hell splashes up and seeps into parts of our lives here on earth. But earth is a place for sinners and where sin thrives. And that is why we have the glory of heaven to look forward to.
Try to avoid wrestling with your thoughts day after day, with sorrow in your heart. It is not the life God intends for you. You can feel those emotions, but don’t sit and marinate in them. Instead, I encourage you to join me this summer, celebrating the every day gifts we are given.
I am using the 1000 Gifts app/website, to record these and you will find them on my Facebook page (you can subscribe to my updates) or on Twitter as I post them each day; I am doing photos along with them.
I also have some Invisible Illness Week plans I will share soon, and #1000gifts is a great way to start this daily habit.
Prayer: God, I know that hell is a terrible place, but sometimes I just feel like I am getting splashed with discouragement, side effects, bad news, sufferings of loved ones, and it just keeps coming. Help me discover how to focus on positive things that You have given me, no matter how small, so my thoughts do not have time to wrestle. Amen.
About the author:
Lisa Copen is the founder of Rest Ministries and she lives in San Diego with her husband and son. She is gradually learning how to balance motherhood, family, illness, and ministry, but she still knows it will be a lifetime lesson. You can see the books she has written, including, Why Can’t I Make People Understand? at the Rest Ministries shop.
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How do you focus on the blessing instead of the burdens? Share it with us and maybe someone else will find this way works for them too.
Oh Lisa, thank you for writing this. So true. So very true and resonating in the deepest places of the heart. God bless you, dear one. <3 BeBe
Great post, Lisa – one we can all relate to but I also like that you included not only your own perspective but those wise words from Joni – only splashes of hell. Love that you had the opportunity in line at the store to sow some seeds into that man’s life.
Hugs – Lynn
Thank you for sharing this Lisa. Sometimes it’s so easy to be overcome with these “splashes” that we miss opportunities to see the good as well as to share it. Praise God for the wonderful testimony you were that day (and as you are so many days to all of us!).
Love and prayers,
Bronlynn
What a great devotion & wonderful testimony & reminder Lisa!
Only yesterday I was experiencing “splashes of hell” in how I was feeling & what I was thinking about my life now that I’m so ill!!! It was an “oh me, oh my” day!! Then I read Karlton’s devotion about “Are You Listening To God As Much As Talking To Him About Your Illness.” Hmmmmm…….God did a number on me & I had an “ah ha moment” that REALLY helped me in how He sees things. It sure helps to have His positive spin on things huh!
Praise God for the Lord’s ministry through you “out there” in the world & “in here” online! Praying God’s richest blessings on you, Lisa, as you continue to serve our precious Daddy. Lotsoluv Kerryn
Thank you, Lisa. I literally stop and count my blessings to encourage myself. I also repeat and write and say aloud – (whatever it takes) – that I am no less blessed and no more tried than anyone else. This helps me most to keep my perspective when people start trying to “saint” me because I’ve come through Oh – so-much. My hardships are just uniquely my own. Others have theirs as well. Thanks for all you do.
Thank you for the special devotion Lisa. I never thought of “splashes of Hell.” If I look to Him during these “splashes” they will not be as scary. I’d appreciate prayers as I am going through some rough times, worsening of my illness, and a medicine and Dr. change all at one time. Soft Hugs Lisa,
Sandra Platt
Thanks to everyone for sharing your stories, perspectives, ah-ha moments, and encouragement, I love reading how God used little moments in my life to encourage others–and your comments always encourage me! Sandra –extra hugs!
I think that one of the splashes of hell is the temptation to feel sorry for myself. Not a good place to be. Usually I can snap myself out of it, but lately, it is a real struggle. Usually I can see someone who is suffering worse than I am and this will make me feel grateful for the level of relief I have. When there is no relief in sight, and the message seems to be, “Wait,” my default reaction is to be angry and discouraged. Satan knows exactly what eau de splash to spritz on me. In these moments, I crawl to Rest Ministries and find shelter.
Thanks for all you do for us, Lisa!