We could all use a dump pass to better cope with illness. Kerryn explains how precious it can be and why.
“He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap; He seats them with princes and has them inherit a throne of honor. ‘For the foundations of the earth are the Lord’s; upon them He has set the world.’” (1 Samuel 2:8).
“Tomorrow we’re having a special time together to talk and I’m giving you a dump pass!”
This was the comment my dear husband gave me two nights ago, before he headed off to bed. I couldn’t quite work out what he was trying to say though. Yes, I understood that we would finally have time, just the two of us, to chat together. It was much needed. However, the “dump pass” had me intrigued!
It turned out that he was giving me permission to tell him anything that was bothering me, upsetting me or hurting me, without worrying about how it impacted on him. Hmmmm. . . a “dump pass” sure was a great description of it and really made me smile.
Every year our local council gives every household a “Dump Pass.” This allows each household the opportunity of taking one trailer load of trash to the rubbish dump for free. These are the bigger things that don’t normally go into the weekly rubbish bin.
I realized immediately what I already knew, deep down. I wasn’t sharing with any family or friends what was really going on inside and the bigger things were accumulating. I didn’t want to upset anyone, didn’t want a victim mentality to set in, didn’t want people feeling sorry for me! I already knew this was what was happening and why.
However, I wasn’t really sharing with the Lord fully either. I was transferring my opinions of how others would respond, to how God would respond. So, I was storing things up inside and it was getting rather cluttered!
I shared with the Lord what was going on and asked for forgiveness for treating Him as a flawed human being. Gradually I felt the clutter, rubbish, trash….whatever you want to call it….leave me. I felt lighter and more like a “princess on a throne of honor” than a big piece of trash.
Yes, I still used my “dump pass” with my precious husband! They were the things that I’d stopped sharing with him. He heard me. I felt cleaner and clearer.
The New Living Translation says: “He lifts the poor from the dust and the needy from the garbage dump.”
Prayer: Lord, help me to be honest, open and vulnerable with You. Thank You that You want me to take my garbage to You, for You to remove and deal with. Thank You for understanding me and reminding me that my Father is the King of kings. Amen.
About the Author:
Kerryn Wright lives with her family amongst the gum trees in South Australia. She was a special education teacher prior to chronic illness. Her husband is carer for three of their family, who have chronic illnesses and disabilities. God has always guided them through life’s challenges, often in surprising ways.
What happens when “trash” builds up inside you? How do you release it? Do you ever transfer your expectation of others onto God? Is there a trusted friend or family member that you can share with when things pile up?
This video is the group Calling Glory singing “Don’t Give Up.” It is a beautifully simple video with lyrics and I think they will encourage you. -Lisa