We all have life connections, but how are we using them? Do we avoid those we love the most to make other connections? Kerryn explains what recently happened at her home.
“He who has ears, let him hear” (Matthew 13:9).
Everyone in my house has been incredibly frustrated today!
There are frayed edges around our patience, communication, and moods. This has been intensifying, until today when tempers were lost. The problem is not life-threatening or endangering our lives, but one would think so, with how it’s impacted on us all.
Put simply, our internet has been cutting in and out! These internet interruptions have been occurring a few times every hour, over the past few days, with increasing regularity.
Not a big deal, except that my husband’s livelihood is down. Not a big deal, except that my middle son and I don’t have access to our cyber worlds, that keep us connected to the world and entertained during illnesses. Not a big deal, except that our eldest techno-whizz son is running between each of us, and the modem, trying to sort out all of the problems.
I finally gave up in disgust this afternoon and took a “time out.” As I breathed and calmed I reflected on what was happening and asked God what He wanted to say about this. Immediately, a few things clarified in my mind.
I realized how often the Lord must be connecting with me when I suddenly cut out, as some other thought takes my attention. I sure do that, and with increasing regularity lately! My mind wanders to some worry or concern, rather than staying with the One that can deal with those worries and concerns. How frustrated must God feel? “He who has ears, let him hear.”
Then I reflected on whether I do that with others too. I realized, sadly, that I do, particularly with my family. They’re chatting away to me and I’m listening intently. Then all of a sudden my mind wanders off.
Yes, I have brain fog, from chronic fatigue syndrome, that is real and impacts heavily on discussions. However, there are many times where I just wander off in my thoughts, while they’re talking. How sad!
I wouldn’t be this rude to my friends, so why do I do it with God and with my family? It’s sad, but it seems that those closest to me miss out on my best. I could easily say, it’s a normal human behavior and let this go, but how sad if I miss this growth opportunity.
“He who has ears, let him hear.” This verse is written between parables in Matthew 13. The internet cutting out was a parable for me today, about listening to my Lord and my family.
Prayer: Lord, I’m sorry for disconnecting with You. Please help me to hear You and listen more intently. I want to grow deeper and stronger connections with You and my family. Amen.
About the Author:
Kerryn Wright lives with her family amongst the gum trees in South Australia. She was a special education teacher prior to chronic illnesses. Her husband is carer for three of their family, who have chronic illnesses and disabilities. God has always guided them through life’s challenges, often in surprising ways.
Are there any people that you’re disconnecting with during discussions? What helps you to enjoy deeper connections with God? What parables speak deeply into your life?
Take 90 seconds to watch this upbeat video about why Jesus came to earth and what He wants from you (hint, hint–it has to do with a connection!) -Lisa