Illness can send us spinning in many ways and sometimes we feel like the Potter is just letting us spin, rather than doing any molding. Lynn shares her journey. . .
“But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him” (Jeremiah 18:4).
A friend told me years ago that she had never known anyone to be, so literally, on the Potter’s wheel as I am.
I have lived with vestibular dysfunction–constant dizziness, eruptions of internal spinning vertigo, related bouts with nausea, and a striving to keep my balance, since March of 1983. The cause is unknown though doctors believe a virus hit my right inner ear as evidence of damage is there.
It hit in one instant, has refused to leave, and has defied all treatments.
In early March, 2013, a differing form of vertigo hit, blindsiding me with its vengeance. Similar in debilitation, it has a differing trigger and was diagnosed as BPV (benign positional vertigo). There is a therapy that has been successful for others in correcting this. I sought its help, praying for relief.
The process is a nightmare putting one into a vertigo state in hopes that small crystals, flaked off and , lodged in a semi-circular canal of the labyrinth–where they do not belong–will return and stick in the part of the inner ear where they do.
As I write this devotional, early April, I have chosen to stop the treatments as there has been no signs of improvement, no guarantee that any will. My therapist is in agreement as she has witnessed the agony I was enduring, unlike other patients of hers in the past.
I am choosing to let the Potter work with me on his own.
In the context of this Jeremiah verse, the clay the potter was working with was flawed as Israel needed to repent of its ways and be reshaped. However, my vestibular system, though newly flawed, falls more directly into the translation given in the New Century Version of this verse:
“He was using his hands to make a pot from clay, but something went wrong with it. So he used that clay to make another pot the way he wanted it to be” (Jeremiah 18:4 NCV).
God’s care in transforming each of us is personally designed for the clay that is “us.” He alone can accomplish the transformation because He loves and knows His original design.
Prayer: Lord, I know I am safe in Your caring hands although the transformation process is hard. Remaining still in spirit, if not body, I put my trust in You as You complete Your work in me. Amen.
About the Author:
Lynn Severance is a retired elementary classroom teacher. She lives in Lynnwood, Washington. She writes to encourage others as God has encouraged her during 31 years of living with daily physical challenges. Visit Lynn’s blog and sign up to receive new postings in your email box! http://lynn-severance.blogspot.com
If you are currently in the state of being transformed on the Potter’s wheel, share how you are surrendering to the process. If not, recall other times when the reshaping seemed impossible in your eyes; too hard to endure, but He did accomplish His purpose. Share how this built your faith and trust in His ways.
Lynn shares. . . Audrey Assad sings of the restlessness we each experience until we surrender to rest in the caring hands of the Lord. This is not easily done when we are being transformed on the Potter’s wheel but paradoxically, it is only in surrender that we can release the restlessness. May her song soothe you as you let its message come inward and settle you.