Lisa’s body image was hurting to the point where she wanted to avoid where God wanted her to be.
I don’t share this photo with you because I am proud of my puffy face. But rather, because it is a fact of life and I have to “get over myself” for God to be able to use my experience.
In thinking about how we cope with our body image when we are ill I remembered this experience.
A few years ago when I was fighting the results of increased doses of prednisone, I was to speak at the church I grew up in. My pastor who helped “raise me” spiritually sat in the audience, as well as my parents. My husband and son (my son fell asleep!) and parents of many people I went to school with from kindergarten through twelfth grade.
To say I wanted to look good was an understatement.
My plans . . .
It was a small town. I’m vain. I wanted people to say, “That Lisa is a fabulous speaker!” I didn’t want them saying, “You should see Lisa. She has put on so much weight. It’s hard to believe she used to be a cheerleader.”
And yet, I only had so much control. The meds stacked up, and so did the pounds. So I decided to laugh. People may never call me “classy” but they will call me upbeat and honest.
Laughter gets me through a lot of things and keeps my brain active as I try to be clever rather than dull. It doesn’t always work, but it gives me motivation.
And so, I shared about my illness, I shared about my weight, and I shared about the challenge of just trying to find a belt when you can’t reach around behind because of deformed shoulders.
God’s plans . . .
And today, over 16,000 people have watched this video. Some have laughed along with me. Some have said they have cried. And some have laughed through the tears–which by the way–is my ultimate favorite emotion.
We never know how God is going to use us–or our sense of humor. We must learn to laugh. Now, you don’t have to make a video and make others laugh at you –or even with you. Don’t put yourself down. You are not a joke. But when you find yourself in one of those situations, like I describe below in the video, do your best to learn to laugh at yourself. In the end, you will be blessed because of it.
When we allow our misgivings to become our motivations God can do things with us that would have never been possible in the presence of confidence in our own abilities.
If you cannot see the video, or wish to share it on Pinterest, visit the youtube link here.
She has spent the last 3 years going down from 20mg of prednisone to 8 and it has been a struggle. She is thankful her face isn’t as puffy, but discouraged that the pounds have not come off, despite how everyone says, “they will just fall off.” Those pounds are clinging to her for dear life and she is trying to eat healthy and focus on what goes into her mouth, instead of what doesn’t. By just sharing the photo above, however, she realizes how far she is coming in being able to accept herself the way she is.
You can see the books she has written, including, Why Can’t I Make People Understand? at the Rest Ministries shop.
View all posts in this series
- 4 Struggles A Chronically Ill Woman Has About Her Body Image - July 11, 2013
- Self-Esteem and Chronic Illness: Where Does Faith Come In? - July 17, 2013
- Do You Want to Be Beautiful? Video Reminder - July 18, 2013
- Are We Stylin’ Even Though We Are Ill? - July 19, 2013
- Am I Vain if I Am Stressed Out About My Appearance From Illness? - July 23, 2013
- Are You Able to Laugh at Your Own Body Image? - July 25, 2013
- Songs to Remind You That You are Beautiful! - July 29, 2013