Do your before-illness memories ever haunt you? Shelly shares.
“Through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God” (Romans 5:2).
I’m haunted by my past. Not in the way you might think. Jesus has done a marvelous job of assuring me of my salvation and the cleansing power of His blood.
It’s the specter of my feet pounding against the earth as I run; of effortlessly joining in a song of praise; of pulling fresh cookies out of the oven to share with my children.
It’s the ghost of hiking that haunts my steps–mocking me.
The memories take phantom form–dancing, driving, dressing, doodling.
Sometimes it seems as if every room is filled with chimera–worse than emptiness.
Worse than darkness. Worse than quiet.
The illusion of what once was spooks us into utter despair.
Break this haunting with Your grace, Father. No more specters. No more ghosts. No such thing as spook or chimera.
Reality of who You are . . . and who we are to You. It’s the only thing that saves us.
May the solid form of Your hopeful plans chase every phantom run it into the ground where it will remain. May the unshifting light of Your blinding faithfulness shatter every transparent longing, leaving no corner untouched, no safe haven for the enemy.
No more looking back. The past holds nothing for us. Make tomorrow shatter all–the illusion of power these ghosts hold over us as You remind us that You make rivers.
As You assure us that it is possible–everything is possible and . . . the best?
The best is yet to come.
Prayer: Father God, help us not to remain haunted by our past. Help us to look forward to how You can use us in the future. And help us to relish the blessings You bestow today. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
About the author:
Shelly Hendricks is a wife and mother of 2 amazing kids. They live the good life in South Louisiana. She is a writer for God’s glory. She also suffers from Intracranial Hypertension and a yet-unnamed neuro degenerative disease, among a myriad of other issues mostly stemming from these two. She had brain surgery in 2012, to install a VP Shunt, and had a revision in January 2014. Though her condition continues to deteriorate, her spirit is constantly focused on eternity. Disability has been hard to deal with, but she depends on God for all strength and hopes to encourage others on this journey, through her blog at http://reneweddaily.com
What solid things can you hold to when the ghosts of your past abilities and adventures seem to hang around and mock you?