Sitting at the infusion center at my rheumatologist's office with an I.V. in my arm. I am getting the Rituxan. I trust you, Lord. It is a miracle. . . a miracle mixed in with a melancholy mood. It is a chemo drug. . . now approved for rheumatoid arthritis. Evidently it "works," but there is something about knowing it was designed to treat cancer that gives me fidgety feelings. I have taken cancer meds in the past. You don't embrace the drug as an answer. You juggle the undercurrent of tolerance mixed with hope. I trust you, Lord. I read the side effects on the US National Library of Medicine. The first box is a big warning: Some people who received Rituximab experienced severe reactions to the medication. Some of these people … [Read more...]