“Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. (Matthew 6:12)
Learning to assume responsibility for myself & breathe God, You forgive me, a sinner was a monumental battle in learning to live with others responses to my illness & divorce. That battle lasted over years of experience, study, counseling, & leading by the Holy Spirit. I had no idea how difficult the next phase of the battle would be to learn to breathe I forgive.
Jesus forgave the soldiers at the cross & gave Himself in their place. In neither instance were the people asking for forgiveness, or had a sense of their sin, but they were forgiven. The Lord pointed out that Id be forgiven in like manner, as I had forgiven. I certainly didnt want to forgive if it meant that I had to love & leave myself open to being hurt again. The Lord said Yes to both. The Lord showed me that forgiving was taking my place in front of the cross along with those that I felt had wronged me in h&ling my divorce & illness.
St&ing in front of the cross as a beautiful sinner, human being, lost & broken, child of God made me whole in His redeeming love. That allowed me to forgive & let those whod hurt me st& in equal status at the Saviors feet. Forgetting was not required, just remembering who & where I was.
Forgiving was for my healing. As long as I am stuck in judging, anger, blame, bitterness, vindictiveness, & retaliation, I cant assume responsibility for myself & the power to change myself or move on in my life. I can only be free, as I forgive & ask for forgiveness, before the throne of the cross of the Lord!
About the Author:
Kathleen S. Lewis, RN, MS, LPC, CMP: has lived with SLE & many rheumatic diseases for 29 years; is the author of CELEBRATE LIFE NEW ATTITUDES FOR LIVING WITH CHRONIC ILLNESS. She is a Stephen minister; has 2 sons & 3 magical gr&children; resides in Marietta, GA with LB, the best Peek-a-Poo ever; & knows In my weakness is Your strength. Check out & meet me for a chat at http://www.letscelebratelife.com.
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