The world places so much value on how much we can get done in a day. It’s more concerned with job titles, accomplishments, and rewards than the character and worth of a person. As a new mother and wife, nineteen years ago, I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. Suddenly I wasn’t able to do all I once did. I couldn’t help comparing myself to other mothers.
I had a picture of what a good mother and wife should look like and it didn’t leave room for inadequacies. All my priorities changed. I couldn’t hold down a full time job or make plans in advance, since I never knew how I was going to feel on any given day. Some days, I could barely get out of bed.
Even though, I found myself wanting to fully participate in life, my mind and body wouldn’t cooperate. In spite of trying to have a positive attitude, there were many times when I felt very inadequate. I asked myself, “How can God still use me?”
I once read a saying, “We are human beings, not human doings.” I think this means we are not worth something because of what we do. God loves me because he created me: not because of the things I can get done. I am worth something because God created me!
Psalm 139:14-16 reminds me of this. “My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
Zephaniah 3:17 also tells me how much I am treasured by God. “The Lord your God is with you. He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you. He will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with singing.” This is true, no matter how exhausted or insufficient I feel.
I know I don’t have to “pull myself up by my bootstraps” to matter to God. I can just rest in His love. He covers all my inadequacies and mistakes with that love. When others judge me for what I cannot do, it is easy for me to get down on myself.
I still have problems comparing myself to others. Yet, we all have our own strengths and weaknesses and we all fall short one way or another. We can’t do things on our own no matter how self-suffcient we think we are. God can use my situation for a greater good. As Pam Vredeveil states ” I am useful to God, not in spite of my scars, but because of them”.
God cares more about who I am more than what I do. He cares about the time I spend with Him in quiet fellowship, relying on Him to sustain me. I have had many of these opportunities since I became ill. God
God is still teaching me to look to him for my opinion about myself. It doesn’t matter what the world thinks. It matters what my heavenly father thinks and He thinks I’m pretty special. Now that’s something to feel good about!
Prayer: Dear God, Please help me remember how much I mean to you. I don’t have to worry about pleasing others if I’m pleasing you. Help me to remind other people of their worth as well. Amen.
About the Author:
Tanya Fierro is from Pennsylvania and lives with her husband and two teenage children. She has had chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia for seventeen years. She enjoys comforting those with the comfort God has shown her. You may see more of her thoughts at www.motheringfromdaytoday.blogspot.com.
When you are tempted to compare yourself to others, how do you steer your thoughts back to how God sees you?
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