Just when we think we have conquered most of the fear and anxiety of living with daily illness, it can start all over again.
I met with a specialist who strongly believes that a new medical treatment is the best way for me to proceed to keep my body strong. He was caring and informative. The final decision is mine. He mentioned potential side effects but felt that they are remote for me. I came away from the appointment thankful for his care, but overwhelmed mentally and emotionally with one more thing. You all know that feeling. . . more fear and anxiety.
I agree that this doctor is right. I know that God has created wonderful means in the medical field, including medications, that help me. What had my mind in turmoil was past experiences with harsh side effects when trying a new medication or treatment.
In retrospect, it is interesting that in filling out forms for this new doctor, I found myself digging into my journal entries of nearly 25 years ago. I needed the name of a drug that had been part of my chemotherapy protocol at that time. In reading through the months of that journey, I was again grateful for the faithfulness God showed me and how He guided me through that unknown experience–unknown at that time of the writings in my journal.
This new unknown does not hold the seriousness of cancer, yet how good of God to take me back, literally, to my own written words during the months He carried me through a very deep journey with Him–one in which His faithfulness was so evident.
Has that taken away my fear and anxiety now? Not completely. I am processing feelings , but I am certain of what I know. This new treatment is needed. I know I can trust God who will guide me and help me be at peace as I seek Him. I will take the time to let Him come in his personal ways. I know He will. He has before and I am ready as He comes to help me now.
Prayer: Lord, thank You for peacefulness only You can bring when my mind stirs with fear and anxiety. In my restlessness I turn to You, knowing that You understand and together we will work out Your best. Amen.
About the Author:
Lynn Severance is a retired elementary classroom teacher. She lives in Lynnwood, Washington. She writes to encourage others as God has encouraged her during 30 years of living with daily physical challenges. Visit Lynn’s blog and sign up to receive new postings in your email box! http://lynn-severance.blogspot.com
When did fear and anxiety about your chronic challenge last flare up to bring chaos to your soul? How did God help you come to a place of peace in Him?