Are you over-reacting to little things and see it slowly break down your relationships, your joy-factor? Diane shares how she dealt with this.
“Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” (Psalm 139:23-24)
When I find myself over-reacting to the little things in life; is it because I’m not interacting with the Father?
I know that often as individuals that deal with chronic illness we may not always feel upbeat, or have a pleasant smile on our face. There may be times we are even quite grumpy! (At least it happens in my case!) Those times are usually when I am in the most severe pain or symptoms of my illness. Until recently, however, that is to say that I have noticed that more and more–I had found myself getting into the unlikable habit of answering my sweet husband in short answers or even arguing over some silly thing that was of no real importance.
Then when I was reading the Word and came upon the verse, Psalm 139:23-24, ” Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts,” I had to think. What, Lord, am I anxious about that is making me so on edge?
He gently pointed out the next verse: “See if there is any offensive (sinful) way in me.”
What? Offensive, sinful? My mind rumbles through my most recent actions, not really coming up with anything drastic!
But then it dawns on me. It isn’t the drastic things, is it, Lord? It’s the little things. The time not taken with You, when I left you waiting for me at our devotional time. The moments we shared and talked, or perhaps it’s the negative thoughts that I allowed to creep in when someone offended me at church and instead of holding it captive and rejecting it, I let it fester and chose not to forgive.
As I continued to reflect, my precious Father showed me many things–not huge drastic things but little things that had built up a wall, a barrier between Him and me. A barrier that was preventing us from inter-acting, allowing his Holy Spirit to direct and lead me, just as the last part of the verse promised. “And lead me in the way everlasting.”
I know there will still be times I will be less than pleasant, as I am a work in progress. Just as each of us are a precious work of art, that will one day be complete, we will be devoid of all flaws, standing face to face with the Master, the Creator who has molded and shaped us though each of our actions and inter-actions with Him and with others.
Prayer: Father, I pray that today as each of us look to You for direction, that we will also look and examine ourselves through Your eyes, that we will remove any offensive way from within us and enjoy a day of full, loving and complete interaction with You. Amen.
About the author:
Diane Kalata lives in the central Florida area. She has three grown children and her wonderful husband offers much support. She enjoys leading a women’s bible study group as well as a chronic pain and illness support group. She also goes on mission trips in the summers, as God allows, enjoying the opportunity to minister to others in need. Her hobbies include writing, and art. Diane is a four and half year colon cancer survivor, she deals with severe digestive issues resulting from chemo damage, also with sphincter odi syndrome, irritable bowel syndrome and chronic pain and fibromyalgia. She desires to be a blessing and testimony to the Lord of her life.
Have you found yourself overreacting to simple issues? Taking out unresolved frustrations on family or friends? Has God given you any insight as to new ways to deal with this issue? Have you found that your relationship with God reflects how you treat others? Let others benefit from God’s insights in your life, share!
If you have “done it all” the best way you know how, but are still feeling empty, remember the Bible is God’s Word and always will be. This is a sweet reminder from Sara Groves as she sings “The Word.” Remember when you feel you are overreacting to all the messes in life, you can only find hope in God’s Word. -Lisa