“I rejoiced with those who said to me, ‘Let us go to the house of the Lord'” (Psalm 122:1).
I enjoy attending church. I look forward to worshiping God and being renewed through His Word. I enjoy fellowshipping with other believers.
There is nothing more frustrating than spending time showering, ironing clothes, fixing my hair, etc. and ending up too tired to actually go! And there is no way to know ahead of time when these times will happen.
When this occurs, my husband must go alone and answer all the questions about my whereabouts. He has to explain my situation, which can be awkward. People don’t always understand when you explain it to them–“What do you mean she was too tired to come, the kids kept me awake all night and I’m still here!
When these times happen, I ask God to turn things around and let me feel good enough to go. It’s so discouraging when my prayer doesn’t change how I feel. After all, I’m trying to go somewhere I know the Lord wants me to be!
My ladies group is planning an overnight retreat next month. There is no way I can attend the entire event like the other women. This makes me feel so out of place.
Missing events in the church can make you feel lonely. It can make you feel frustrated and sad. God made us to crave fellowship with other believers.
However, we have to accept that we can only do what we are able and let go of the rest.
I choose to focus on the times that I feel good enough to be there and be grateful for that. I will also choose to accept the times I cannot be at church and remember that I will be back as soon as I am able.
God understands our limitations. God loves us and knows our heart.
Prayer: Lord, help me to accept when I have to miss church because of my physical limitations. Help me not to be discouraged. Amen.
Karen Weber has dealt with several autoimmune diseases for over 20 years. She has a passion for encouraging others with the hope of God through the path of illness. She has led a support group and has taught classes for the community on “Living Well with Chronic Illness.”
Do you struggle with missing church with your illness? Do you feel lonely when you can’t attend special events at church? Do you ever feel as if the church doesn’t miss you when you aren’t there?